| Tuesday, April 14, 2009 |
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5 Rounds for time: 21 Sumo Deadlift High Pulls @ 25kg 21 Push Ups 7:45 |
| Jin Han 4:17 PM |
| Monday, March 30, 2009 |
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For time: 21-15-9 Handstand Pushups Ring Dips Pushups 11:40 Need to work on HSPU form. Ring dips were done strict with full range. So were push ups. Dinner: (5 blocks) 4 oz. Chicken Breast 6 cups lettuce 1 peach 1 oz cereal 1 cup milk 6 almonds 1 tsp olive oil |
| Jin Han 6:10 PM |
| Sunday, July 22, 2007 |
| Have been in Melbourne readying myself for the university experience these 2 weeks and I honestly have to say, going through it alone is fundamentally different from whizzing through the orientations and such with someone else. Not knowing anyone in the university itself only compounds the whole 'I feel like the lone ranger' feeling. While one would simply say 'Just make some new friends' or 'Go do something so you won't feel like that', anyone who knows me well would know better than to tell me that. The first few weeks of orientation is always tough but usually people have someone to turn to when they get back home. Some have their parents, others their partners, but somehow or rather I fall in either none of these 2 categories or somewhere in between. I have my parents, but that's pretty much a bust because of the cynicism that plague all adults. My partner is always available to talk to but somehow or rather there's that physical presence that you pine for constantly. I'm a selfish person, I do admit that, and I tend to want everything. Realistically speaking I should just suck it up and push forward, and that is what everyone tells me to do, but since this IS my blog, I can do whatever I want with it and whine as much as I want. Now that that's out of the way, I've just about finished whining heh:P |
| Jin Han 4:38 PM |
| Tuesday, June 19, 2007 |
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Trudging through these weary days with a smile on my face for people to see is so frustrating. They can never know what I truly feel, they would not care even if they knew, so what would be the point in expressing it? I can only be myself with her, and I truly cherish those days. Whoever said putting on a front so that others can feel better about themselves was easy has to have his/her head examined, then cleaved into several pieces and tossed into a toilet bowl for good measure. When I try counting the days I find I am unable to without hating the world for being so unfair. I suppose one could argue that life is fair in that I have someone special to share my life with but the greedy bastard in me just wants more... Bitching about it certainly isn't going to mollify the situation, nor is thinking about it going to make living with the hard truth any easier, but one cannot help but dwell on these things. I just want her...I want her so much... |
| Jin Han 11:16 PM |
| Saturday, April 14, 2007 |
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Patience. Everyone wants it, not many have it. I always thought I possessed such a trait, but recent circumstances have led me to believe otherwise. A rather unwarranted revelation it seems, but necessary... I can't wait to see her again. I can't wait to have her in my arms and tell her that I love her. I can't wait for my Cambridge A-Levels course to end. I can't wait for these hours of frustration to end. I can't wait to recover fully. I can't wait for dinner to start. The list could go on and on but I guess I'll just stop there. The bottom line is, I have no patience. Fact of the matter is, life revolves around waiting. So if one can't wait? how can one live through life? Then again I could say I have some measure of it, because the only person I would wait for would be her alone. |
| Jin Han 7:16 PM |
| Monday, April 09, 2007 |
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Hello hello! After a very long hiatus I'm back!! ...For a brief moment anyway hehe :) Now that trial exams are over and I await the nascent 2 week 'study break', I've just realised how pointless it is when you're forced to rot at home instead of doing the things you want to do. Suddenly life is not without a sense of irony and you find yourself wondering why some things just don't work out the way you want them to. Then again to look at these days with a sullen face would be a gross transgression since there are worst things in the world. As the days draw nearer and nearer to that date, I can't help but feel a sense of dread, coupled with the preposterous hope that I would manifest time and reality altering powers in the near future heh. Inevitably we are all slaves to time, subject to its every whim and fancy and all efforts to resist would be but a moot attempt. One cannot help but feel a bit helpless sometimes... |
| Jin Han 1:48 PM |
| Sunday, December 03, 2006 |
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Paid another visit to my great grandmother today in this geriatric recovery ward or something like that. I have never seen so many elderly people in my life. Okay, maybe I have, but I have never seen so many helpless elderly people in my life. Watching them being strapped to their wheelchairs so they don't fall off, their eyes fixated on the television so languidly whilst their food is being prepared just depresses me. There was no animation in the room, all of them merely hollow shells of what they once were. Listless, dispirited, debilitated. The sight of them eating was even more morose. Some had to be spoon-fed because they couldn't use their hands; some had to spit out the chicken slices which were too large to chew; some had to bob their heads up and down just to swallow their food. Granted, most of them were over 90 years old but it kind of gives you a reality check. In 60-70 years, that is what I'll probably look like that. That is how helpless I can possibly be when I'm 9 decades old. I don't want to lose my teeth. I don't want to have deteriorating motor functions. I don't want to be so feeble that I need help taking a shower and dressing up. I don't want to have to pee through a tube. Ironic that we are born helpless and we die just the same. Now I understand why some people are so afraid of growing older. Heh. |
| Jin Han 2:04 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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