| Wednesday, October 05, 2005 |
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emotionally i think i am going through a rather rough patch..getting a bit unstable of late as i find myself growing more temperamental as the days go by and believe me,it is not a good thing when almost every little thing seems to frustrate me for no apparent reason.now more than ever i feel as if there is a huge weight being put on my shoulders,the expectations of many to excel as well as my own.doing well in english lit.and GCE O-Level English is already burden enough for me,but people still expect the best from me and well,i just do not want to let them down.in a world where pressure becomes an advent,what do we look to for respite?what do we find solace in? personally for me i have absolutely no idea what i find most comforting.maybe i am taking too many things for granted.i am fortunate enough to be in a financially stable family,to live under a roof,to have food on my plate,to have a nice,comfortable home to come back to...what more could a person want?whenever i tell myself this a question pops up.."isn't there more?"..it probably is quite improper to feel like this,so how do i avert myself from thinking about it?how do i feel content and satisfied?why do i still feel like there is something missing?now that is definitely something i should delve deeper into because seriously,it can eat a person up... after all these months of pressure and concentration on exams i still have not fully gotten over her...at all!it is like that has been shoved aside whilst the exams whizz past me and it all resumed once again.sometimes it gets quite annoying,others it just makes me feel quite melancholy.you start to wonder why a simple crush could actually hang around for lord knows how long.how profound this impacts my life is still inconclusive but i am sure with time it will reveal itself to me...i hope... |
| Jin Han 11:02 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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