| Wednesday, September 14, 2005 |
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what i am feeling at this very moment? tired,languid, and really really worn out honestly,today was actually the first time in my whole life when i was actually looking forward to get my driving license...apparently my ride left without me and i wasted 30 minutes waiting around for them to come back...i was not so much upset but rather helpless. having to wait and wait and wait seemed to have got me thinking. What am I to most people? Am I the person they go to for consolation and sympathy or do they simply revel in barraging me with jokes, extreme sarcasm and silly pranks? It goes both ways when it comes to the latter but you tend to lose yourself when it comes to other people's opinions of you. When it comes to iron clad friendships I just come up short in the end. Most of the folks I hang out with are always happy and cheerful, but deep down I do detect a completely different emotion altogether. Fact of the matter is we all put on happy faces to show the world that we are indeed imperturbable, yet it belies a whole reservoir of feelings. Envy, disappointment, misery, depression, hate... I do know that I have been harbouring some rather ill feelings towards the person/people who have given me much irritance and frustration. I feel like a harried old man, rife with the unconscionable hatred and malevolence accumulated over the years. Life it seems does not appear to be as pliable as i imagined it should be... And once again I find myself rambling into a labyrinth of emotions and chaotic thoughts. Better end this before I go on... |
| Jin Han 8:56 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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