| Saturday, July 16, 2005 |
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it was election day today,finally we got to retire!unofficial but still...it feels good to know that i no longer need to stay back on mondays...i get to go home...hehe...anyway..it went pretty well i gather say for a few undesired events...was a bit frustrated today because had to maintain some discipline(it was bloody chaotic alright)...will not be my problem starting tomorrow anyway lol...a lot of our seniors came back to school to see...it was nice seeing old faces among the sea of new ones... kind of stupid really...the whole week i was hoping that she would be coming...maybe not hoping but i knew...don't know how but i just knew...was thinking about it quite a lot...like how i would be feeling if she did come and how i would react.simulations were played over and over in my head and they were pretty pointless in the end.when she came i did not notice much as i was trying to control the situation and talking to my juniors...but when i did notice her emotions just surged through my body...one part of me said "hey!she came!wow!" and another part said "she came...oh...sighz...she came..." of course i did not talk to her the whole time...i am quite the chicken...did not know what to say really...after a few months of no talking,smsing or chatting,it gets weird...wonder if she is still mad at me or something...she looked good i guess...better than before...good for her... we took a group photo of all the ajk pengelasan buku...i think we had about 2 or 3 former ajk pengelasan buku and the new ones...we were competing with the ajk pengelasan majalah....(how many people you can cram into one photo..)anyway it was pretty awkward..for me anyway...i mean even though i was at one end and she was at the other...just felt weird for me...the whole time i did not know what to do except converse with everyone except the person i wanted to talk to the most...makes me want to slap myself because i let things slip through my fingers so easily... when she left i felt really empty inside...come to think of it i have been feeling kind of empty these past months...i wish there was this pause switch so that i could just pause my feelings and i could do anything i wanted without being influenced by them...i smiled and laughed with everyone but seriously i did not know how to deal with things...thinking about her makes me angry,sad and happy at the same time...and seeing her again...brings back some fond memories and bitter ones...wanted to just get away from it all but did not get the chance to...even being her friend is better than feeling like this...but i am still feeling bad for past wrongs...when am i going to move on? |
| Jin Han 6:53 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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