| Tuesday, June 14, 2005 |
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it gets a bit disparaging sometimes you know...to be attracted to someone who has erased your existence almost completely with only faint memories,mere shadows of what was once a reality...i mean you do get used to it most of the time but you are entitled to at least one moment of despair every month or something...i hate not being able to talk to her...i hate not being able to be a part of her life,whether as a friend or not...i hate myself for doing what i did as well...it's like a shame that can never be redeemed or something...to most it's probably nothing,a petty action,but to me it's different...it's too humiliating to say and almost unbearable to admit...maybe that's why i choose not to talk to people about it...so that they won't judge me for doing that...it's difficult living like you have no one but yourself to count on...wow..i wonder how people do it when they go overseas...of course my sister didn't have that problem because she went with her friend...anyway back to the point...i usually wish that i could go back in time so that what happened might have been prevented...but after reading the poem "the road not taken" i guess i understand that time waits for no one and that one is constantly met with a barrage of choices...most of which cannot be rectified at all...only to keep walking without looking back...i guess my problem is i keep looking back into the past...most probably unable to let go of that person whom i hold dear...i wonder when i'm actually going to look back at this and laugh my head off for being so stupid..sighz...i feel so depressed right now...i guess it's because of everything...listening to more of the phantom of the opera...man it is magnificent...really emotional...lots of romance there...talk about unrequited love...i might actually understand the phantom's feelings after all...lol...strange as it may seem i would have preferred Christine went with the phantom rather than Raoul....it'd be more romantic that way...sighz...again we touch that subject...oh geez....i really have to stop thinking about all this... |
| Jin Han 11:26 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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