| Monday, June 20, 2005 |
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well...finally got spirit:stallion of the cimarron original soundtrack and the songs are summarised in one word - AMAZING! it's a great mix of contemporary rock and ballads...it suits my taste very well...anyways...listening to those songs brought me back to a time when i actually felt happy on the inside...no i'm not talking about normal happy where i laugh at jokes...i mean happy as in feeling good about myself...nowadays that doesn't happen...i don't feel happy with myself...sometimes i feel as though i'm a bit of a failure..or maybe a lot like a failure...when i look back at what i've done for the library,it seems that i have not been doing anything at all...i feel like i've failed the library,failed the librarian board,failed my friends,failed her,failed myself...sometimes it just makes me want to jump off a cliff or maybe just drop into a bottomless pit and cry all i want...but we all know the latter is impossible...in fact so is the former...darn...alfred quoted in batman begins "why do we fall down?so we can learn to pick ourselves up again."or something like that..i only watched the movie once so i may not have got the words right...anyway...i think that really means a lot(excluding the fact that it came from a movie)...i have fallen down...and it seems picking myself up has become a more arduous task than i expected...i know i'm not really alone in this matter..there are people all around the world who have fallen down,some even worse than me...or maybe a lot more worse than me...i'm just being selfish...which is not a good thing when it comes to moral values and what society deems correct or wrong...i wonder when i'm actually going to be fully aware of my surroundings...noticing every little detail,every habit every possible type of person...that would be a startling revelation indeed...maybe not that kind of awareness...but the ability to see through people,to be able to notice that they have problems which are actually far more serious than mine...and try to help them...i'd like to strip myself of my selfish attitude and adopt a better one...maybe only then can i learn to pick myself up again and rise to the pinnacle of glory and self contentment in life...maybe i don't have to be hopelessly smitten over a girl or getting reciprocated with love from her...when you look at it from a certain point of view...that really is meaningless compared to what really is important in life...you know...? |
| Jin Han 8:45 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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