| Thursday, June 23, 2005 |
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today was seriously tiring...i think i must have woken 2 or 3 times in the middle of the night...darn it...anyway,school was pretty prosaic...as usual...one of my erstwhile friends showed me a side which made me dislike him even more...he was asked a question today by the teacher but was at a loss in trying to give an explanation so i tried to help him out a little by lending him my notes...he put them aside and tried to explain again on his own but to no avail...that really pissed me off big time...i asked the person sitting next to him regarding his reasons for pushing my help aside...was it because he had no time to look at it...?or was it because he did not want to...?the ego of it all...how big can a person's head be...?seriously...overindulgence in pride is too much for him...i spent the rest of the afternoon in class wondering if he was always like that but i didn't know it...i know he was not the person he is now a year ago...i should have encouraged him more to transfer to another class..he clearly does not belong in mine...i don't even bother talking to him anymore...i guess i am done lying to myself and him...i stopped belying my opinions from him weeks ago and now all that's left is just an awkwardness that sometimes is pretty obvous at times...still...i have very few friends in my class...or at least REAL friends...tomorrow i plan to go to Christian Fellowship but not with Esther...i really didn't enjoy it when she moved to the other side because she couldn't take the teasing...kind of makes me feel really lonely because there aren't alot of people to talk to...say for Nico i'm virtually alone...just makes my blood boil that people can actually be so insensitive...or maybe i'm just being selfish but it's so difficult to even cope with a period of no communication with anyone...when i think about it more i get harried and really angry...frustration burgeons within my mind and i just wish i could yell at the whole world...i wish i could yell at him...i wish i could yell at Esther...i wish i could yell at HeR...i wish i could yell at everybody...it's certainly better than keeping it bottled up until i just die because of an overflow of rage and fury...tomorrow's cf better be good or i'll just drop off into the dark abyss that is depression...the world really sucks sometimes and being thankful for what i have is really not as easy as i thought...i keep saying it to myself but i don't really believe it...oh please let me believe that i am really thankful of the things i have.... |
| Jin Han 11:40 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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