| Wednesday, June 01, 2005 |
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somehow today i came to a strange conclusion...i may need to actually address my issues straight on and come to an equilibrium before i can actually move onto something else...maybe my falling out with her is a sign from God that i'm not yet ready for this kind of thing...i might need to take care of past doubts or issues that still haunt me to this day in order to progress further in life...i know it sounds a little crazy and sensational but rationalising it like this seems easier than thinking that i am a piece of scum that doesn't deserve to live...i guess time really does help one reach a state of enlightenment,if you would actually call that realisation an enlightenment...i may have to get my priorities straight here...know what i have to do and stick to my goals and wants rather than doing things half-heartedly without any state of mind...routing around through my mind seems a better use of my time rather than just sitting around contemplating of how painful a past event has become and what harm is has inflicted on my psyche...i don't need all that...everywhere around me i see loads of couples and such...sometimes i feel really happy for them because they can actually achieve such states of elation and their predilection for one another is actually quite reassuring...but my friend,who is also single,also feels the sadness of unrequited love...reciprocation is a difficult thing to achieve for people like us...given my present physical and mental condition i could be classified as a total mess...i'm working on my body nowadays but my mind...well...i'm just pursuing scholastic excellence at my own pace...maybe i have my priorities a bit wrong here...should it be the mind before the body or the body before the mind?both are equally engaging and lucrative in consequences...oh rats..there's just no time to do both...but then that's the problem everyone faces nowadays right?we have too little time to do the things we want...24 hours in a day is not enough...7 days a week is not even close to the bare minimum...4 weeks a month is just nonsensical...12 months a year is even worse...100 years on average for a human is just outrageous...of course overpopulation might be avoided but still...to excel we only can specialise ourselves in a certain field...perfection as we know it seems impossible because of this lack of time...gee...it's just silly thinking about this but still...it never hurts to ponder a little despite thinking a bit too forwardly... |
| Jin Han 10:00 PM |
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Jin loves brownies, cookies and cake. Jin has never been anywhere further than Australia. Jin could never stop being a sadistic, sarcastic meanie. Jin is also the opposite of everything said one line up when the need arises. Jin would rather have a desktop rather than a laptop. Jin has an obsessive, compulsive need to ramble, blabber and regurgitate all manner of nonsense. Jin hates being ignored by the people he loves. Jin hates being alone most of the time. Jin hates reflecting about his actions. It's taxing. Jin has a habit of thinking too much. Jin often doesn't see the glass as half-empty or half-full.He just sees the glass. To some, Jin is weird; to others, Jin is even weirder. Jin wants nothing more than to be happy. Rich would be a big plus though. Jin is pretty tired of referring himself in the third person's perspective. |
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Being apart from my sayang. Seeing animals get tortured. Seeing people get hurt. Losing what's important to me. Sluggish internet connections. Bittergourds and zombies. |
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